Sometimes, I take a step back from my life and look at myself from another perspective, I ask myself ‘why am I so preoccupied with perfecting everything around me?’ And when I finish falling through my spiral of thoughts, I always come to the same conclusion; I, am just like any other human, I want to leave a tiny mark in this infinitely tiny universe I call my life, I don’t want to miss out on anything.
It is very hard to do any work when I’m questioning my own existence, I realize how terribly short our lives are, how all of us are so alone in the universe, how we are born and die, alone. In hindsight, the idea of death and loneliness doesn’t scare me, I embrace the void, what scares me is the ultimate freedom we, as humans, have. Yes, its liberating and freedom has always been the jewel in the pantheon of life, but it also means that we have the freedom to do ANYTHING. It means that you have upon you the herculean task of deciding what you want your life to be, what for you is the meaning of life.
For me, the meaning of life is very simple, it’s to be happy now and make sure that you’re happy in the future, it means knowing that you can’t escape the void and having the courage to embrace the rock and roll awesomeness of the universe. Do whatever you have to do, to make sure you’re happy now and happy in the future, I know it sounds cheesy but life really is too short. We have to embrace the freedom and find it empowering and exciting so when you look back at your life you have no regrets or unfulfilled dreams.
You’re alive, you’re a human with a terribly short life, you’re an individual mind in this universe who can do anything and everything they have ever wanted or dreamed of and there’s no point in existing if you’re not going to do it.
The thing is that, the universe doesn’t care. The world doesn’t owe you anything, it won’t stop for you and your little problems, time will slip past your fingers. It’s up to you to make your life the best life that you can, to take control of your life and decide what for you is the meaning of life. Embrace the void and the bluntness of the universe, have the courage to exist. There is so much joy and happiness in the world for anybody to waste their time being unhappy or slumping, whatever makes you unhappy, deal with it. It is up to you to make your life as fulfilling and happy as you can, take every moment and make it memorable.